I finally found it. I worried I'd not get to experience it. I'm not sure why I want to experience the bad stuff - but I do. Maybe it's my way of feeling like I belong.
Anyways - I found it! I suppose that if eating a box of generic pizza rolls, 2 handfuls of pretzels and a payday candy bar, while thinking about what I want to eat on the way home in an hour isn't bandster hell, then someone is messing with me.
I feel full after eating that. But not satisfied. Which I suspect is the mind games piece of things.
But I really want something from McDonalds.
But I know I shouldn't and don't need it.
The next 2 days at work will be nuts. I have 14 hours each day of meetings for our employees. I need to figure out, quickly, how I will handle the next 2 days and eating and mindless eating and finding a way to be satisfied.
Only 6 more days until my fill....